Wow, has it really been that long since I last wrote a blog? I mean, I knew it had been a while, but as I sat down to start writing this, I half expected to find cobwebs on my keyboard. There’s no denying it—my blogging game went dark faster than a Jimmy Saville documentary.
But it’s not just my blog that’s been gathering dust. The past year has been... let’s call it a "creative hiatus." Or, if we’re being brutally honest, a what-am-I-doing-with-my-life crisis—the kind that hits you square in the face right after leaving university. Yes, it’s been almost a year since I waved goodbye to uni.
I haven't been totally AWOL and i have had some amazing creative opportunities throughout the past year, however I have had a huge slap to my confidence and wondered what the hell am I doing??
The Year of Reflection (and Procrastination)
And so began the Great Period of Reflection. Which is a fancy way of saying I procrastinated a lot. I watched a lot of Netflix, did some “soul-searching” (a.k.a. scrolling through Instagram/TikTok), and occasionally made a half-hearted attempt at networking.
But between bouts of existential dread, I also had time to really think about what I wanted.
Sure, I feel lost—like, "took a wrong turn in the Shining maze" kind of lost—but I'm not ready to throw in the towel just yet. I've realized that part of my problem was that I had put too much pressure on myself. I thought I had to have everything figured out the moment I left uni, as if the universe would hand me a blueprint for my life the minute I tossed away my place.
But life isn’t a screenplay with a neatly tied-up ending. It’s more like an improv show—unpredictable, sometimes messy, but full of potential if you’re willing to roll with it. And slowly, I've started to understand that it is okay to be uncertain, to not have all the answers. I'm not lost; I'm just exploring. (But honestly, could the map have been a little more detailed?)
A New Chapter: Back to Uni and Back to the Blog
Fast forward to now, and I’ve decided to take a leap of faith—a leap back into the world of academia. Yep, I’m heading back to uni, but this time with a clearer sense of purpose (and a lot more coffee). I’m starting a new course, diving deeper into film studies, and I’m more excited than I’ve been in a long time. This time, I’m not just going through the motions; I’m genuinely passionate about learning, about honing my craft, and about figuring out exactly where I fit in this crazy industry.
And guess what? The blog is making a comeback too. If I’ve learned anything in the past year, it’s that self-reflection and creativity go hand in hand. Writing about my journey, my struggles, and my small victories has always helped me process my thoughts and find clarity.
So here I am, dusting off the keyboard, ready to share this new chapter with you. I won’t promise that every post will be profound or that I won’t occasionally ramble on.
But I can promise that it’ll be real, it’ll be honest, and it might even be a little funny (or at least amusingly awkward).
So here’s to new beginnings—to diving back into the world of film, to exploring my creativity, and to embracing the uncertainty that comes with it. And, of course, here’s to actually keeping up with this blog. Who knows? Maybe a year from now, I’ll look back at this post and see how far I’ve come—or at the very least, I’ll have a good laugh at my own expense.
Remember, it's okay to change your story and start a future that feels good for you. We have one life, and we should live as many lives within that as we can.
If you got this far thanks for reading
T x
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